Soul(ful) Notes

I got the words "step sister" on my first blue ticket.  I don't have a step sister, so I decided to get a new ticket:
#tourist

"Soul" 

I actually hate the word soul.
I also hate the words, "darling", "vibes", and "rad".

if "eyes are the windows to the soul" and I have brown eyes, does that mean I have a shitty soul?
does that mean I share similar souls with more that fifty percent of the world?

I know that your eyes are blue,
and I know you're afraid of the water,
and I know that you're afraid of what's inside
and so am I

you have an entire ocean inside you, and I can't swim.



Lose Your Soul - Dead Man's Bones
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=k022p_VPUbM

how to be a tourist

you post on your blog late

you play/text on your phone all class period

you talk when someone else is

you don't share out loud

you don't push/test yourself

you don't comment on blogs

you come to class late (often)

you don't come to class at all

you don't have fun

you care about what other people think (too much)

you rush writing your posts

your five extra pages are lousy

I know, for I am one

I was afraid to post this

I'm afraid of why people hate themselves

I'm afraid of aging

I'm afraid of sleeping

I'm afraid of my drafts

I'm afraid of what I can't say

alive

I'm not sure how to feel alive, or how to put it into words so I asked my friends, what makes "you feel 'alive'?"

these are the responses I got:

to the girl with the brick house and brick mailbox

I'm sorry, I still love you

a "poem" for you

a "poem" for you.  7-9-15

on my journal's front page
it says, "express what's in
your heart." it's from a Dove
chocolate. it's raining outside
my window, and inside my
brain. you are my bed sheets
and you are the pen that's
writing this. you are
100 sheets of blank paper
and you are the drawing
on my wall.

I know this is pathetic
because, 1. on the back of a
DI receipt and 2. I
can't write well. 3. you
                                don't
                                love
                                  me

            I love you

      love,

     ________

         

please, prove you're not a robot